perhaps stupidly admirable

I learned something about myself today. Well, I always knew it, but the pieces sort of came together. I learned that I let my emotions rule matters of the heart and my brain rule matters of reason. It sounds simple but I know a lot of people (including myself at times) where this is not the case. Like, I WANT a laptop--it isn't a rational thing, I already have a computer (although I can find practical reasons for owning one). However, I did not just go out and buy one; I researched them and saved and made a plan for when to buy one. However, when it comes to matters of the heart, although I am aware of time, distance, complexity etc. they do no necessarily get in the way of what I want. Double edged sword? Perhaps, but I would like to think its admirable, nonetheless. Call it my romantic side, because god knows I am not a traditional romantic. Ha!